john19862009's Blog

The life that I dreamed about when I was young is the life I live now in every aspect, now that I have, it The person I was so deeply in love with has had sex with my brother my brother. Now that I am gone and she is pregnant it kind of bothers me. Now I have been with close to fifty people in less than two years. Its kind of a good record but right now at this time this is not what I need. It hurts, but I guess this is what I asked for. Now I just wonder if the life I dream of now I will live later Well my ex, I am just going to call her Colombian, became a important figure in my world of twisted lovers. I ended up meeting this young girl in the neighborhood as a runaway that had moved there before I left. The people she was staying with were so to call, ran from out the hood on some gangsta type shit that im not even goin put paper. That night I go to the spot where they use to stay at and I go in the bathroom to see her laying in the shower face down with the water on with all her clothes on. I immediately grab her from out the shower to help her. I had knew from the beginning that she was feeling me cause I walked to the store with her at one time before and had shot some fly shit in her ear. With this being known I was sure to help her cause she might be a good girlfriend. I help her and shit then here come all the homies. Now u know when u see a drunk chick you suppose to help her cuz crazy stuff happen. Well this what type of predicament I was in cause all the homies were trying to have sex wit her. Eventually I’m like man what u want to do. She decides to come back to my place with me. The girl was so drunk, so I called my mom to come and pick her and me up and bring us to the house. Well I get her to the house fix her tea help her with her shower, oh yea u should of known that was goin happen, and get her situated. Once she is sobered up some, we lay it down for that night and me knowing in my mind that is some of what I like to call strange, I had to sample it. I do it, raw, daredevil type of missions. Only because she was like she had only been with one person and he broke her virginity. See, I know these were some lame type of dudes so I’m not tripping on much bout her thinking she is fresh so why not. So u know that go on for like a month and a half then she ends up going to the doctor for problems. Well come to find out she like 15 weeks pregnant so I’m like Whooooaaa. That kind of shit gets to my head ,but I don’t trip I’m jus like how many people have u really been with. After her getting caught up in a few lies the answer finally come out to be........